Finn Headcanons

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• Finn has trouble sleeping. He’d always been a light sleeper and that coupled with the nightmares he gets means that he just has trouble willing himself to sleep each time. Later, when the war is over and it’s just him with his partner, Finn spends hours counting their breaths so he can lull himself to sleep.
• It’s a little thing but hearing his partner breathing softly next to him, laying in the dark wrapped up in each other’s arms makes him feel at ease. Which helps him a lot in his sleep. Back when he’d been with the First Order, Finn had always found himself sleeping with one eye open
• Extra headcanon is that a lot of Stormtroopers who’d be slated for elimination or reconditioning were often taken at night so as to not rouse any “excitement” according to the officers. Finn had the unfortunate experience of seeing one stormtrooper taken and never return.
• Finn develops a taste for spicy foods the minute he’s able to expand his palate. He genuinely cannot get over the spices that he knew of but didn’t really get to experience when he’d been in the First Order.
• Catch this boy saying something isn’t spicy enough later on down the line and added chili flakes.
• Finn wakes at the crack of dawn and runs. And runs and runs. The nightmares that plague him at night seem to slip away in the early mornings and fall down to the ground with his sweat. So he runs every morning without fail. And only when it feels as though he’s about to bust a lung does he eventually stop and looking up at the sky. 
• Finn is really good at diplomacy. He’s good with his words and is able to convey so much meaning without even trying. He’s persuasive, a natural born leader and that is why Leia has him sit in on meetings more and more. They start off as simply strategic meetings; things that require his intimate knowledge of the stormtrooper training. Then it grows to outlining future battles. Then it grows to coming with her to meet senators and working on diplomatic missions to other planets. It just grows and grows until it’s simply natural to have Finn at Leia’s side. Helping and working with her.
• Finn has a lot of admirers: people who heard about his help in destroying Star Killer, people who heard about him defecting and people who just look up to him as the leader he’s become. People watch for him, they notice him and it’s a little overwhelming at first. A little too much that has Finn on the edge of his seat. But over time he gets used to it. 
• Plus, people bring him a lot of treats and tbh that’s amazing and Finn treasures them all. 
• There are still days though that make Finn feel disconnect; from reality, from the events that are happening around him. There’s a part of him that still feels as though he’d wake up and he’d back with The First Order, killing at their orders and having no will of his own. Sometimes this part of him hisses that there’s a catch. That there’s always a catch and Finn needs to figure it out before he’s cut loose and set to drown. 
• This usually happens during the moments right after he wakes from his nightmares. Those moments when it’s just his harsh breathing and the slowly brightening sun around him. 
• When Finn first meets his family he got so excited, so apprehensive that he accidently force lifted everything in the space around him….Including his family. They all laughed about it when it happened and Finn wore the biggest grin for like a week when his mother pulled him close and told him “welcome home son.”
• Finn has an older sister. She’s older than him by about 12 years. She’d been there when he’d been taken; taken right from her grasp in fact. Their meeting is subdued in all actuality. His sister slowly walks over to Finn and pulls him super close and holds him for a really long time. Finn hugs her back just as fiercely. It doesn’t take long for the two of them to cry silently in each other’s arms.
• Finn is Force Sensitive. Extremely so. He spends hours researching and learning more about his ability now that he doesn’t actually have to hide his abilities. He spends the days learning and listening to holos about anything Force related.
• He spends a significant amount of time with Leia as she and him go over his force sensitivity, what it means, and how he can control it. Leia, after having sensed Finn’s wariness with how extreme the Jedi’s teachings were (Finn is very much attuned to his emotions so asking him to not accept them, to reproach them is too much) introduces him to other schools of thought. Careful to tell him that each has its own merits and detriments.