A birthday fic for @scorpiofinn. Bittersweet Finnpoe.
There are nights, even long after the war is over, where Finn still finds himself haunted by ghosts from the pasts. Ghosts of those that died, by his hand or by others, as well as ghosts of those who lived. Many times the last ones are the hardest ones to live with.
Sometimes he can see the reflection of ghosts in Poe’s eyes too and knows that Poe can see them in his, both the ones they share and the one that belong to each of them alone. Then Poe will lean in a plant a soft kiss on Finn’s lips, wrap an arm around him and hug him close. It doesn’t make the ghosts vanish, but it does make their voices fainter.
On other nights, fear of those who stole his childhood and tried to make him a weapon harry him. Though the First Order is long since destroyed the wounds that they left in him lingers still and on those nights the pain of them can feel like a living thing, itching beneath his skin and the need to act, to move, is overwhelming.
These nights give him little rest, leaving him pacing back and forth, filled with restless energy that nothing can disperse.
He sees Poe’s worried glances on these nights. Notices how his husband’s eyes will linger on him a little too long, the anxiousness in them barely hidden when Finn tells him to go to bed, that he’d stay up ‘just a little bit longer’, words they both know for the lie they are.
But they also both know that there is nothing Poe can do to help on such nights and that him being up will just add to Finn’s burden. So Poe always dutifully goes to bed, though judging by the dark circles that will be under his eyes the next morning Finn doubts he gets more sleep than him.
And then there are night like tonight. Where the air feels warm and the sky is clear, the stars shining like a thousand tiny, welcoming lanterns against its pitch-black backdrop and Finn feels so light he could fly away if Poe wasn’t holding him so lovingly. Where Finn drowns in honey-sweet kisses and gentle caresses, and where the light in Poe’s eyes as he looks at Finn is just as bright as the light in Finn’s heart.
On those nights when they fall asleep curled around each other, both sated, content and basking in the afterglow of sex, a feeling of love and safety is shared between them. As he drifts off, his head nestled on Poe’s shoulder,
Just because Adam Driver can be mistaken for Jewish because he’s assumed to have “the look” does not, in and of itself, take precedence over literally everything else about the other characters, especially Finn.
Finn has so many amazing parallels to Jewish heroes, particularly Moses, that it’s uncanny.
Played by a Black man whose breakout role is a character named Moses
Taken from his family and raised in the First Order under mysterious circumstances
Had the potential to be a prince of Egypt real mover and shaker in an oppressive regime*
Saves the life of an enemy of the First Order, killing some Egyptians First Order personnel in their escape
Chose to turn his back on the First Order and pharoah Supreme Leader Snoke
Hides in Midian Maz’s place because the First Order has him on their shitlist
Goes back toward danger despite being wanted by the First Order for treason because his people/friends are in danger
*If we go by tie-in materials that state he could have been a general in the First Order one day
8. Also meets the love of his life Tzipporah Poe/Rey while on the run?
9. Said partner has a parental figure, Luke/Leia/Han, a wise elder who advises and helps Our Hero in his own journey.
With a kingdom that recently found their lost prince, it’s no surprise that security is upped to the max. As Finn learns his role as the Prince of the land, head of security “DJ” has been placed to watch the princes every move.
With the threat of the First Order still looming and Finn being eager to do what he can to take them down, DJ has to choose between loyalty to the crown or loyalty to his prince.
THIS IS THE GOOD STUFF!!!
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Noooo you can’t end it there! The First Order tries to assassinate Finn, trying to take out the threat, and DJ is captured after taking a shot meant for Finn. Their eyes meet! Dramatically! While a wounded DJ is dragged away!
The enemy, realizing the feelings between Finn and DJ, threaten Finn with DJ’s death unless Finn shows up himself. Finn does so and he and DJ are reunited, trapped on a high platform together. DJ tells Finn he shouldn’t have done that but they share a last deperate kiss.
Except… Finn gives a signal, and the assault on the FO stronghold begins! He’s turned the FO’s trap around! As DJ looks on in amazement Finn tells him, “You said you would choose your duty over your feelings. I choose both, because I do not have two hearts but one–and it beats for you and my kingdom both.” He holds out a hand, which DJ takes, and they jump down to a waiting X-Wing!
Later on, with the assault a brilliant success and the FO in ruins, Finn proposes to DJ and DJ accepts. Finn’s ex Poe, the pilot of the X-Wing, gives his buddy Finn a rueful but joyous thumbs-up as the kingdom cheers the happy couple.
it’s Finnship Thursday, here’s my short contribution. (past) FinnSlip & FinnPoe
Something Always Gives It feels like a betrayal. Not to the Order, he had no loyalties to the Order, no obligations to it like it had never held any allegiance to him. It feels like betraying Slip. The taste of Poe Dameron’s lips is betrayal. He said he loved another, he told someone he held them dear and would be by their side yet he is breathing, safe as anyone in the universe and Slip is rotting on Jakku’s sands. He had not been able to see Slip’s face that last time, had not been able to watch his last breath leave him or the light leave his eyes and he was grateful for that in a way. Had he seen it it would have haunted him, but he still felt as though his last moments with Slips had been cheapened, the last slight the Order had dealt Slip was not allowing them to see each other. Their goodbye rushed, and incomplete. And this hello, the fluid motion of their hug becoming more, their lips soft on eachothers makes his stomach drop and his heart flutter. Yet he still wonders what Slip’s lips would feel like.
The first rain drop hits the top of Finn’s ear. It is followed a second later by a second that soaks into the shoulder of his shirt. Then a third on his arm. A fourth run down his cheek.
After that he loses count.
The drops are warm and they feel like tiny hands touching, caressing his skin.
He closes his eyes and turns his face upwards, opening his arms wide as if to embrace the downpour.
His shirt and pants are soaked through in seconds, clinging to his body, but Finn barely notices.
There had been no rain on the Star Destroyers on which he and the other stolen children had spent their childhood and Starkiller Base had only had howling, deadly snowstorms so unlike this gentle, giving precipitation.
Though the droplets are warm, still their evaporation from his skin make him shiver but it doesn’t make him leave the tarmac that he’s standing on and seek shelter. He remains standing, eyes closed, lost in the sensation.
A warm hand on his cheek calls his attention back.
“Hey,” Poe says softly, and Finn opens his eyes and looks at him. “You’re getting wet.”
“So are you.”
Poe’s hair is already plastered to his skull a few errant locks, sticking to his forehead. Finn brushes them away, back among the rest, with a finger. Poe grins and kiss a drop of water gathering on the tip of Finn’s nose, away.
“Wanna come inside?” Poe asks.
“No, I like the rain.”
“Then would you mind if I stay here and appreciate it with you?”
“Not at all,” Finn says.
He wraps one arm around Poe’s waist and pulls him close. Poe gives him another grin, wrapping his arms around Finn’s wait in turn, before closing his eyes and turning his face towards the sky as Finn had moments before.
Finn too closes his eyes once more and loses himself in the feeling of the rain and Poe’s arms safely encircling him.
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